Hey there, WELCOME!
As this is my first post on this new space of mine, I would like to tell you the story of how I came to be at this place of my life, starting new adventures at the age of 44.
In 2010 and 2011 there were BIG things that happened with important relationships in my life.
My oldest graduated from high school and went on her way. Any Momma knows that is hard. Her departure wasn’t a good one, it made it even harder.
Family members that had once been people I trusted, became people I could never trust again.
Painful emotions, that I didn’t know were even there, bubbled up to the surface and I had never felt hate so strongly in my life. Unfortunately it got misplaced on someone who didn’t deserve it.
I had a crisis of faith and my relationship with God changed.
I started on a journey and I had no idea where it was taking me. I was deeply depressed.
My husband, who is the strong one in our family emotionally, fell into a depression and feelings of worthlessness.
I couldn’t help him because I was there alongside.
We had to come to the realization that our little family was the most important thing in our life and if it came down to just us, that would be ok. We had to let go of the expectation of loyalty from everyone else around us. It was one of those years of your life where you aren’t quite sure how you will make it through.
I found Brave Girls Club and began receiving the daily truths. They were a lifeline in my inbox every day. I would sit at my computer with tears running down my face while I read messages like this…
I took Soul Restoration and it gave me insight into how I had treated, and allowed others to treat, my Soul House.
I learned that I could change that. Me. I had the power.
I learned about grace.
I found a relationship with my truth teller that I had never had before.
People that had been toxic to me were no longer allowed in.
I started finding out who I was and what I liked.
I found strength I didn’t know I had.
and then I slipped down the rabbit hole…
I started telling myself lies about how I just wasn’t quite cutting it as a human.
I let other people influence the way I felt about myself.
I handed my power over and let people in my Soul House again that shouldn’t have made it past the gate.
I piled shame on. Then I piled some more.
Then I remembered…
A beautiful soul prayed a prayer of restoration over me. I took it to heart. I spent the next year reminding myself of what was important to me. Really important.
My husband and I realized that a perfect marriage is two imperfect people doing their best.
I remembered that as long as my little family is by my side that is all that really matters.
I found a fantastic therapist who taught me about shame and how it doesn’t belong in my life.
She taught me how to breathe.
She taught me lots of good things. Reminded me it was ok to stick up for myself and be strong.
A friend and I had lots of talks about faith and God and Jesus and she taught me with love and patience and lots of understanding. I remembered about grace.
Brave Girls Camp happened.
I figured out what I wanted to do and went back to school. It was scary and brave and gave me confidence. I tried my best and was made to realize that doesn’t mean perfect, just my best. Thanks husband.
I became a Soul Restoration certified instructor. I learned so much. I came home with hope in humanity and in awe of the women who were there with me.
I witnessed two women who love more fiercely than I thought was possible. Kathy and Melody are doing a work that is a force of good in this world and I get to be a part of it.
I created this little happy place and am excited to bring to you so many good things through it. My soul intention is to create a space of inspiration, bravery, and goodness. A place where you can come and replenish and refuel.
The retreat I have coming up in October is swirling and twirling around in my brain and it is going to be beautiful and amazing and full of so many life-changing things. It is all making me a little manic because it is so overwhelming!! I want every single woman to be a part of it!! It will be magical and I don’t use that word lightly.
That brings me to here and now.
Thank you for being here with me.
I hope you will stay by my side throughout this next chapter of my life.
Big, beautiful, wonderful things are going to happen. But guess what? So are things that are not so big and beautiful and wonderful…and I’m ok with that. I know it’ll all pass and at the end of it I will have gained more empathy and compassion and knowledge.
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